been a while since i’ve written.  obviously i’m excited cos hockey season is around the corner.  i’m moderately into new seasons of tv shows.  fringe is okay.  chuck is back.  how i met your mother.  heroes.  good stuff.

i’m going thru a wierd phase.  i’m about to start training for a new job with my same company.  i’ll be a junior collateral production manager/estimator.  pay raise.  maybe an office.  maybe the ability to work from home.

for some strange reason i am losing the urge to  date.  i’m losing that feeling i have had for the past 5 years that my time to live will be when i’m a father.  i’m losing faith in that.  i tried dating several weeks ago.  went on 9 dates in 5 weeks with 3 girls.  i felt nothing.  i find myself overly attracted to a coworker whom will probably not date me.  she’s 9 years young than i.  i sit at home on a saturday night  with no desire to go out.  partially b/c of financial reasons. partially b/c i don’t feel like trying. i don’t feel like going thru the getting to know you phase.  rehashing the harsh dating life i’ve attracted.

everytime i get into this kinda phase something always happens.

i get a breath of fresh air introduced into my life.  this from an unexpected source.  someone i knew when i was a teenager. someone who quite frankly, i thought was a bad ass.  don’t know why, but she has this look about her that screams bad ass.  the more i look at her face, the more i remember her.  not what she did, or anything like that.  but this weird, like, attraction to her eyes.  the shape.  the color.  her lips.  her mouth.  the shape of her lips.  her teeth.  .  something.

i feel something tho.  i can’t tell if i’m feeling to feel or if i’m feeling b/c it’s real.  it’s that something and that is what i need to investigate.

anyways.  that’s all i got.  i’ll be travelling to nashville october 22-26.  denver nov 6-9 and somewhere around dec 15th as i’m off that week.  i’ll be seeing the predators in nashville oct 23, 25.  in DC oct 28 and in denver nov 7.  that’s 4 preds game in 3 cities.  nice.